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		date : 21 november 2000 tue time : 1955			dear adrian, i am in very bad mood tonight. i don't know why but it's rare. i don't feel depressed easily and even if i do, i'll cheer up again within a short period of time, may be after a movie or playing some of my favourite cds. now i am just like a hollow man with nothing inside me..... i always consider myself to be a very lucky guy but not in looking for love. i don't have the courage to express my inner feelings towards somebody i am fond of. i didn't try 'cause i was afraid of being rejected. i'll just let the feelings pass away, slowly, till it disappears. it's hard, yes but not as hard as when you find yourself still in love with somebody who only regards you as a 'good' friend. anyway, i'd got married with movies and music and they'd never make me feel disappointed. and here comes the song of the day : madonna's time stood still - Despair, regret, and tenderness Is what I feel for you I loved you from the very start What else could I do You read my mind, you made me cry Time stood still And now I know the reasons why Time stood still........ alright, that's all for today, see ya tomolo. jason
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