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- date : 3 february 2003 mon
- time : 0350
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- dear jason,
i had more than a dozen cans of heineken with my sister, eva while both of us spent 4 hours in a karaoke tonight.
i was really shocked to see the state my sister was in tonight. and you should be able to guess why i drank so much beer with her. i'm not sure if i should be telling what's bothering her at the moment as this wouldn't be of any help anyway.
btw, relationship is something that's far too complicated for me to understand. in fact, i've tried to explore this topic in my diary of 28 jan albeit only part of it. we live in different roles every day. and each of the roles is named as "x", "y" or "z" just because we give them the names as they are. she may be a "wife" in the days when her husband is home, and she can be a "girlfriend" when her husband isn't in town. i can't go any deeper than this, not because i dun want to but i'm not capable to as it gets more philosophical.
sometmes, you may wish one day you could remove your mask and be treated by others as what you really are, but the prospect for this day to come seems rather remote, at least in the place where i'm living in. "c'est la vie", you might say. but pls tell me, what does that mean? what's actually "life"?
i dun know. i dun wanna know either. but i do know life will go on no matter you catch its meaning or not.
jason
p.s. in the classic romance flick, annie hall, which scored 4 oscars in 1977, woody allen got a really weird but creative interpretation of the meaning of life - life is divided into 2 categories, the horrible and the miserable ones. the lives of the cripples and the retarded etc are horrible while the lives of the rest of us are miserable. what do you think?
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